Monday, January 7, 2008

Hearts from My Hand

These are just a few of the heart I have been working on. They have helped me release some stress. I can sit quietly and work on them. I leave tomorrow for California. Dropping daughter at LAX. She is leaving for Tokyo for 3 months. It is a bittersweet time. As much as I hate to see her go, she will have a great time and hopefully get lots of work. For those of you that don't know she is a model and she is 15. I worry that she won't keep up with her schooling and won't get enough sleep. Just like all moms (lol). After I drop her off I will drive up to my mom's. She lives about an hour north of Santa Barbara. This is a trip I'm not looking forward to. I will be moving her to an assisted living facility. I have been trying to get her to move for the last year. Now she has no choice. I have a feeling she will go kicking and screaming. She is in the early stages of Alzheimer's. It just breaks my heart to see her slowly slipping away. She didn't know who I was the last time I was there. That didn't bother me so much. But, if she realized, she would be devastated. I have an older brother who lives in the same town as her. He is not able to take care of himself much less her. Oh the things that drinking and drugs do to you. Then I will have the task of unloading her house of 45 years. I will probably break down in the middle of it all. Gotta run off to pack and help daughter sort out everything she is taking..........................

12 comments:

Sharon said...

Wishing you good luck with your Mom. Sounds like a huge job ahead of you.

Casii said...

I am so very sorry that you have such a burden on your shoulders with your mother. Best of luck and strength for the process.

The hearts are beautiful. I didn't want to comment without letting you know that!

Maija said...

Very exciting trip for your daughter, but a bit of sadness for you!
I am so sorry to read about your mom- I know how hard it is to watch your mom deteriorate. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Your hearts are so lovely!

Alison Gibbs said...

How exciting for your daughter.
Alzheimers is a terrible thing - probably more for those watching it happen than those who suffer it.
Make sure you take care of yourself too.
Alison

Heidi (http://journals.aol.com/hwoodred/everyday-cookies/) said...

Your hearts are beautiful. Almost as if they now represent the people in your life you love, and yet must watch go through life, even if difficult. I agree w/ Alison, take good care of yourself first. Hugs. *Heidi*

Katrina said...

Hi Becky, how exciting for your daughter, but a stressful time ahead for you. I am sorry to read about your mother (and your brother). I hope all goes ok.

carlene federer said...

The hearts are just gorgeous, I LOVE 'em!!!
Sorry you're going through such a hard time, good luck, and I'm sending good vibes your way!

Monica said...

hey there lady how are you?
Hanging in there?
Hope everything went smooth getting your daughter off . Sending you a big hug :)

jennifer said...

WOW. You have a lot facing you right now. I don't know if you believe in prayer, but I do, and I am going to lift you up. It may not make you feel better but it will help me!
We've been there, my family and I, and have seen what a rotten twist of fate alsheimer's (sp.?) is. You seem to have so much confidence in your daughter. Hard to let our kids follow their dreams sometimes and I admire you for letting her go. - Jennifer

love of yellow roses said...

your hearts are so beautiful. i just got back from spending time with my mom, she had a stroke. that was y far the toughest time in my life so far, you always think of you mom as the woman who takes care of "you" it is hard to be the one helping her.you are in my prayers.

Gypsy Mermaid said...

Wow that is awesome that your daughter is getting to have a life experience so young! just think of all the places she will be going when she older then she can drag you along!! Lucky you!! :)

cindy said...

Your hearts are adorable! Keeping your hands busy...I can understand it! : ) I wish I lived closer to help you with the house. Hang in there.
c